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| Fuck girls. They're so confusing. No matter what I do it's not good enough. So why do I continue to try? I really have no fuckin idea. So I found out my gf hadn't officially ended things with the girl she was with, she said she wanted to be with both of us, I agreed to stay with her (stupid I know), so whenever they were fighting she'd take it out on me and get pissed off at me for stupid stuff, now yesterday her other gf broke up with her and she wouldn't talk to me all night, and today hasn't really been much better, she's barely talking to me and when I said I love you she didn't say it back. Seriously, my ex says it more than she does. But of course all this is my fault so it doesn't really matter. | | |
| Well, I have to say it's nice to know that you all still care. Things are crazy with me, as usually. So, my ex and I are doing the whole "just friends" thing and it has its ups and downs, but its better than nothing. And from the things she has told me I'm better off this way. I do have a new girlfriend and she's really great. We have so much in common, but like I said she doesn't live here so it's hard. And a couple days ago I was told that she only has a few more months to live, so that makes it even harder. I don't even know what to do. So, I'm a just a little stressed out and I'm still very behind on my homework and I should start enrolling for the spring semester but I'm also trying to decide on whether or not I should move to be with my girlfriend. I just don't know if I'm ready to make that kind of decision, but it's one I need to make soon. Life makes no sense any more. | | |
| So, I haven't been on here in awhile. I guess I just got caught up in all the drama. Things are a little better I suppose. I'm still in love with my ex even though she seriously ripped my heart out the last time I saw her the 7th of October. She fucked me up pretty good that weekend. And I of course decided to make things worse by getting wasted and making a fool of myself by begging her to stay with me that night, if I remember right at one point I was actually on my knees begging. But I can't change that now. She has someone new (a few someones actually). I have someone new, she's pretty awesome, but lives so far away. I don't really know what else to write about and I really should be doing homework because I'm VERY behind because I almost broke my hand punching a wall over my ex. So, I think I'll go now and do what I should be doing. I hope all of you are doing well. | | |
| I'm falling apart and don't know why. I should let go of it all, I should move on. I hurt so much. I'm so confused. I've lost all faith in everything and everyone. I need someone, but who? | | |
| The amazing girl I was with, well she's still amazing. I just really wish she felt the same way I do about her. I miss her even though we still talk a lot. It's so bad that I can be laying there thinking of her and all the sudden I can smell her and it's so wonderful, but at the same time it only makes me miss her more. I think about her all the time. She's just amazing and beautiful in every way. I've loved her for so long, yet I took over a year to do anything about it. And now, now she's no longer mine. I feel empty without her. | | |
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